Initially I had written an entire post about Penelope Trunk and being introverted and feminism, but it didn’t flow as well as I had hoped, so I scrapped it and am now just writing via stream of consciousness.

Anyway.

So I started a course in Project Management in January and I don’t quite know what to make of it. Before it began, I kept having nightmares about school and it got to a point where I didn’t want to go to sleep. Every night it would be something different and equally terrible.

Those have now subsided, and I sort of chalked it up to falling into old habits of being an academic masochist and wanting to get over 90% all the time. I had to talk myself down from that cliff and commit to the understanding that my life is different and I have a 40+ hour workweek and friends and family and a boyfriend who wouldn’t appreciate it if I spent every other night in the library.

One thing it has definitely highlighted in my mind though, is that I really love art in comparison to business (boy am I ever glad I never took commerce!). I like making things beautiful. I like shot composition and people’s stories.

I remember going to a career services counselor in the first year of my undergrad, and she was a very hippie-esque crunchy granola type. She asked me what I love, and I told her that I was curious/fascinated by people and their life stories. I don’t remember where she took that from there, if it were me I’d probably be like “Well you’re screwed kid. Take commerce.” (… why I’m not and should never be a career counselor).

But now looking back, I can see why I love documenting things in video form. It can be non-invasive in some ways, and you can capture great moments, great snippets of people and get a glimpse into who they really are.

It’s probably also why I love reading good blogs, and keeping one myself.

I can be a pretty guarded person, I guess. And I can be a little too good at respecting people’s boundaries, so it’s nice to have an alternate channel into lives of interesting people.